Oh, the messes I get in. I guess in order for me to get the point across fluidly, I probably should talk about this from the beginning. Names of persons involved will be changed to provide anonymity.
Well, to start, a few months ago. I met someone and had began talking with them. over the last few months the flame had started to fizzle out on my end. For a while I hadn't seen or heard from the person, so I figured that both of us were too busy with work and life to continue working on a relationship. Keep in mind that during this time we had never actually made anything official of us, so basically saying that we were not seeing each other exclusively yet. I had bumped into him later on and i guess the time and distance hadn't effected him, however, on my end, had fizzled out a little. Most recently, I have been finding that there are guys coming out of the woodwork taking interest in me, most of which I play hard to get because I enjoy the attention but not really interested in them, others I play hard to get with a little leeway for them to actually get a chance to snag some time with me. Then there is Tim, who I find myself growing very much attracted to on all levels, mental, emotional, and physical. I mean, he is quite an amazing guy, and as it turns out, wants the same things I do which has been really important to me for a long while. Tim is also a total sweet heart and I find myself growing more and more interested in him, which scares me because I'm not sure if he is really into me or if he's just being friendly. It also scares me because it's been a few years since I've actually started falling for anyone, and this reminds me of how i felt when I had fallen for a couple past boyfriends. I'm feeling very uneasy about my feelings, but when I'm around him, I feel comfortable, like sitting on the perfect sofa, the kind that you could fall asleep on the minute you lay on it; comfortable. The only issue as that the first guy who my feelings for have fizzled is good friends with Tim. And, I don't want to lead the first guy on know that I know my feelings are stronger for someone else... : S if anyone reads this and has an idea of how I should go about telling the first person I am no longer interested but still care about them as a close friend, please leave a comment below. Considering I will probably see the first person quite frequently, I don't want to ruin any part of the friendship that we have. Thanks for reading my blog, as boring as it is. :) ~ Dave
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