Dilemma

Oh, the messes I get in. I guess in order for me to get the point across fluidly, I probably should talk about this from the beginning. Names of persons involved will be changed to provide anonymity.

Well, to start, a few months ago. I met someone and had began talking with them. over the last few months the flame had started to fizzle out on my end. For a while I hadn't seen or heard from the person, so I figured that both of us were too busy with work and life to continue working on a relationship. Keep in mind that during this time we had never actually made anything official of us, so basically saying that we were not seeing each other exclusively yet. I had bumped into him later on and i guess the time and distance hadn't effected him, however, on my end, had fizzled out a little. Most recently, I have been finding that there are guys coming out of the woodwork taking interest in me, most of which I play hard to get because I enjoy the attention but not really interested in them, others I play hard to get with a little leeway for them to actually get a chance to snag some time with me. Then there is Tim, who I find myself growing very much attracted to on all levels, mental, emotional, and physical. I mean, he is quite an amazing guy, and as it turns out, wants the same things I do which has been really important to me for a long while. Tim is also a total sweet heart and I find myself growing more and more interested in him, which scares me because I'm not sure if he is really into me or if he's just being friendly. It also scares me because it's been a few years since I've actually started falling for anyone, and this reminds me of how i felt when I had fallen for a couple past boyfriends. I'm feeling very uneasy about my feelings, but when I'm around him, I feel comfortable, like sitting on the perfect sofa, the kind that you could fall asleep on the minute you lay on it; comfortable. The only issue as that the first guy who my feelings for have fizzled is good friends with Tim. And, I don't want to lead the first guy on know that I know my feelings are stronger for someone else... : S if anyone reads this and has an idea of how I should go about telling the first person I am no longer interested but still care about them as a close friend, please leave a comment below. Considering I will probably see the first person quite frequently, I don't want to ruin any part of the friendship that we have. Thanks for reading my blog, as boring as it is. :) ~ Dave

Danessa's Jade Heart

It's been little over a week since I last posted anything. not much has happened in that week or so to make me jump right on top of writing about it, however there has been enough news to post. Lets start off with my meeting with Massachusetts Drag Queen, Mama Savanna Georgia. Mama had a show in Lewiston in which, my alter ego, Danessa Jade, went with her BFF. Mama was just as amazing as I had expected her to be. Her one woman show helped me to know where it was that I wanted to take my own stage persona, as well as help my best friend know what she really wanted to do in the drag community. So, my best friend is now my "roadie" and has the special name of Jade Heart. :) Well that's all for now. Will write back soon.

Leap Day

2/29/12 - Leap Day

      I didn't have time to sit and write before going into work, but anyway, last night was the leap day. Last work night in a three day stretch and glad to be home tonight. Especially  the storm picked back up after I got home and has been going on strong since then. I had made just in time before it really started coming down.

     Last night was really quiet. We only had a few customers, which only made getting my chores done fast. Only had one really upsetting order in which a lady was rude and arrogant while telling me her order. Oooo she was a bitch!!! I wanted to Bon Qui Qui her ass out of there. She was very rude and obnoxious. Other than that, the night went by really well.

     The storm started around 1am with spitting snow. My co-worker was looking forward to shoveling, but by the time we had finished with the broiler, there wasn't enough snow to really shovel. He was sort of bummed but still took a shovel and a bucket of salt outside to at least make sure it wasn't slippery. As I said earlier, the snow didn't pick up until after I had gotten home.

 

Starting Over in Cyberspace

Tonight I am working at 9 and I hope . I'm slowly getting moved into my new gmail account. It's really exciting for me since I haven't switched e-mails since my freshmen year of highschool. My first e-mail address was Yoda496@Juno.com. That one has been retired for several years now. After we got rid of Juno, I switched to Yahoo. then it was Yoda496@yahoo.com. and I had one of the smallest passwords imaginable. It's a wonder that I didn't get hacked and had to get a new one all that much sooner. Unfortunately time is on the slim side for this post, so I will have to cut it short to get ready for work. I will try posting with my phone tonight. Oh the discoveries.

Quick lil update before I publish and post this......just caught myself trying to check out Gibbs on NCIS. Totally not like my but DAMN, he is pretty handsome. :S *blush*

Welcome to my Life

2/27/12
     I switched my e-mail client to google's G-mail. I figured that if Yahoo was gonna make me play Russian Roulette every time I try to access my mail, it was time to go with something different. As with new things, I spent a long time, after getting the account set up and setting up to import my e-mail from the old to my new, to check out everything that came with it. Google has come a long way. Not only does it have the search engine, it also has Google+ profiles, Access to Blogger, and it connects to my You tube. I'm excited I switched and I can't wait until I am flowing through all it's features with ease.
     So that was a big part of yesterday and today. I am back to work tonight. I work overnights out at a fast food restaurant off of the interstate. My shifts usually last ten hours a night. Right now we are heading into spring and a busier time period. I Can't believe I'm going on two years there. If I am still there after my two year anniversary date, that will be a new milestone for me. I have yet to stay at a job for a full two years. I've come really close, leaving only a few weeks prior to my two year anniversary. So that will be a big thing for me.
   Anyway, I will post more in the upcoming future, there is a lot I want to say and not enough time for me to put it all in this post. Until next post. ~ Dave