Dilemma

Oh, the messes I get in. I guess in order for me to get the point across fluidly, I probably should talk about this from the beginning. Names of persons involved will be changed to provide anonymity.

Well, to start, a few months ago. I met someone and had began talking with them. over the last few months the flame had started to fizzle out on my end. For a while I hadn't seen or heard from the person, so I figured that both of us were too busy with work and life to continue working on a relationship. Keep in mind that during this time we had never actually made anything official of us, so basically saying that we were not seeing each other exclusively yet. I had bumped into him later on and i guess the time and distance hadn't effected him, however, on my end, had fizzled out a little. Most recently, I have been finding that there are guys coming out of the woodwork taking interest in me, most of which I play hard to get because I enjoy the attention but not really interested in them, others I play hard to get with a little leeway for them to actually get a chance to snag some time with me. Then there is Tim, who I find myself growing very much attracted to on all levels, mental, emotional, and physical. I mean, he is quite an amazing guy, and as it turns out, wants the same things I do which has been really important to me for a long while. Tim is also a total sweet heart and I find myself growing more and more interested in him, which scares me because I'm not sure if he is really into me or if he's just being friendly. It also scares me because it's been a few years since I've actually started falling for anyone, and this reminds me of how i felt when I had fallen for a couple past boyfriends. I'm feeling very uneasy about my feelings, but when I'm around him, I feel comfortable, like sitting on the perfect sofa, the kind that you could fall asleep on the minute you lay on it; comfortable. The only issue as that the first guy who my feelings for have fizzled is good friends with Tim. And, I don't want to lead the first guy on know that I know my feelings are stronger for someone else... : S if anyone reads this and has an idea of how I should go about telling the first person I am no longer interested but still care about them as a close friend, please leave a comment below. Considering I will probably see the first person quite frequently, I don't want to ruin any part of the friendship that we have. Thanks for reading my blog, as boring as it is. :) ~ Dave

Danessa's Jade Heart

It's been little over a week since I last posted anything. not much has happened in that week or so to make me jump right on top of writing about it, however there has been enough news to post. Lets start off with my meeting with Massachusetts Drag Queen, Mama Savanna Georgia. Mama had a show in Lewiston in which, my alter ego, Danessa Jade, went with her BFF. Mama was just as amazing as I had expected her to be. Her one woman show helped me to know where it was that I wanted to take my own stage persona, as well as help my best friend know what she really wanted to do in the drag community. So, my best friend is now my "roadie" and has the special name of Jade Heart. :) Well that's all for now. Will write back soon.

Leap Day

2/29/12 - Leap Day

      I didn't have time to sit and write before going into work, but anyway, last night was the leap day. Last work night in a three day stretch and glad to be home tonight. Especially  the storm picked back up after I got home and has been going on strong since then. I had made just in time before it really started coming down.

     Last night was really quiet. We only had a few customers, which only made getting my chores done fast. Only had one really upsetting order in which a lady was rude and arrogant while telling me her order. Oooo she was a bitch!!! I wanted to Bon Qui Qui her ass out of there. She was very rude and obnoxious. Other than that, the night went by really well.

     The storm started around 1am with spitting snow. My co-worker was looking forward to shoveling, but by the time we had finished with the broiler, there wasn't enough snow to really shovel. He was sort of bummed but still took a shovel and a bucket of salt outside to at least make sure it wasn't slippery. As I said earlier, the snow didn't pick up until after I had gotten home.